SATURDAY

well since i finshed friday lets continue wid saturday... i woke up took a bath hoping dat the colour might drop a bit.. well obviously it didnt they call it permanent for a reason...so went downstairs and dad was there he didnt say a single word to me... mum asked me to approach him and apologize and all dat.. well i sat nearby then dad asked bout my driving classes... then my sis was like " see i told mummy that dad has no problem wid him" and my mum got pissed she started shouting and told my dad dat she wanted to dye her hair too, dat was it wrong thing to say he juz burst started lar kutuking me like hell... saying dat i dunno where i stand asked me to remain where i am we haf a standard of ourselves we dun need to do nething to change dat... if u still wanna do everything den u get out of my house i dun need u to b in my house and so on bla bla bla.... well i was pissed too but juz held back from saying nething didnt wanna hurt him or make him even more pissed... well i decided to bold my head lar no choice alredi wad everyone like dis gone lar happy family so no choice lar... jz when i was about to leave mum told me dat she talked to dad and got him cooled down a bit so i can keep my hair for now wooo hooo YESSSSSSSSSS well yeah lar... but i had a function at my uncle's house after that... well ther first thing i did was to tell them bout my hair and make it clear to them well they were really supportive and said yeah well as nick always say shit happens... but i was more worried bout my grandparents well they didnt say a word and i was surprised how can my grandparents not say a thing... well gud enuf for me they didnt well everyone else noticed...my cuzins, my frens, but damn i'm lucky i dun haf to cut my hair i juz love my hair now.. haha thanks sis for doing my hair for me

DELAYED

ok well i havent written for quite sumtime I'll write about Friday the 28th of december. well as i haf mentioned earlier in the other posts i was about to get hair dye a temporary one.... welll guess i'm kinda stupid when it comes to all dis...u c wad happened was rishi and myself we went to jusco to get hair dye... so we went seraching the whole place for hair dye, temporary ones of course... well we decided to purchase hair dyes from watsons as it was the cheapest we could find... well little did we know that the dyes were actually permanent, it wasnt till half way of the journey back home did it strike my mind that we didnt really ask whether it was permanent or temporary well it was too late and we surely couldnt return it to them, so we decided to juz go home and figure out wad we were suppose to do.. well i returned home and after consulting my fashion designer, cindy (thanks a lot for helping out) i found out dat the dye was actually permanent... well kinda late to regret i had to wait for my mum and sis to come back and consult them about wad i shud do next... so once my mum came back she started this whole fuss about "i told u to get a temporary dye everytime i giv u a bit of freedom u climb all over me" same old line again and again trust me i've heard it a lot... so she wasnt dat happy bout me dyeing my hair but i wasnt about to waste 20 bucks juz like dat so i asked my sis to help me out, she helped me dye my hair well i was suppose to wait until the desired colour comes or sumthing like dat, i never saw dat colour but i juz had to wash it off as it was time for the party well i took my bath and started drying my hair and at last plucked the courage to look at myself in front of the mirror and wad i saw wasnt actually bad... it looked good i mean not to say nething gud to myself but i felt satisfied dat it had worked at last...my sis loved my hair she said she wanted me to do it for her too, but my mum... no way she was quite angry not very but quite... she said i look like a paria it doesnt suit my skin colour the whole naggin thing which i shall save u from... well i went to the party well everyones first comment was " dei how ur mum let lar" haha well this time she didnt haf a choice i guess... the party was ok lar... wadeva or howeva it was i would still support my frens no matter wad... so yeah... well the dance floor... oh yeah wait wait tammy's performance how can i miss dat out.... it was GREAT... and i mean it tammy ok lar for once u did sumthing worth seeing :P haha no but seriously it was nice i was enjoying it.. yeah u too stephanie well until the whole cd went jamming... no idea wad happened but tammy claimed it was francis who burnt the cd though everytime he burned a cd for me it never did dat.. well newayz back to the dance floor.. ok lar dat was kinda the best part of the party lar i mean it always is... but it finished quite early around 11.50 pm they stopped... well the next problem came up which was transport to go back... it was suppose to b a whole big group of botanic boys taking taxi to botanic however these *$#@ers got a lift from komala and luckily for us we got a lift back home from rishi's parents... thanx rishi... then it was back home... well dad didnt even come and talk to me, mum was cooled down...so i juz decided to go and sleep as i was alredi quite tired from the dancing and all.. so yeah i slept

MORE POEMS

Why does it always burn in my heart,
I fail everytime I try to play my part,
The green dragon rose but I held it tight,
I controlled my emotions and avoided a fight,
If he loved her so much he should haf told me so,
Instead he kept quiet and let my feelings grow,
She made me feel she was my everything,
But what can i do now, there isnt anything,
If she didnt like me, why didn't she say that,
Instead she said she was hurt being played at,
Thats why i said I'm willing to wait,
I believe we can be together, I do haf faith,
But what use is that if you dont love me,
Nothing would happen even if it was meant to be,
I keep wondering if all this is true,
Or juz a plan to ruin me and you,
The dreams I had about us, I feel its gone,
I wonder if on the right day i was born,
For my wish never came true,
To love a person like you which are so few,
But if you have chosen life to be dat way,
I can only respect it I dun haf anything to say

PAIN

am i all alone in this world?
there is no one, not even a girl
is it that hard to understand ?
what i want and who i am
cant none of u see
how much ur hurting me
i noe how much you care
i can sense it from the air
but why dont u noe dat?
why are u making me feel bad
she does understand me so do u
mayb in a different way but yes u do
why cant u see that i love u all
ur juz making me drop, bleed and fall
life is not short mayb u say
wad if tomolo in a coffin i lay
coz this pain i'm bearing everyday
might make me go a different way
but wadeva way i decide to choose
all of u still i would not wan to lose
besause life is not perfect without all of you
that is how it falls in my view

TIRED BUT MUZ ENJOY

haih woke up quite early again.... around 10 was kinda tired... had to help my uncle shift sumthings from his old house to his new house... heavy stuffs.. so was dead tired.. now haf to go jusco... guess wad i'm gonna buy? HAIR DYE... at last my mum said ok for temporary dye well neone who might b goin for the party can c my hair hopefully it'll b nice... guess dats all for now i'll b posting more poems soon

more poems

it had to happen all over for me,
is this what i deserve i fail to see,
just to help my friend save his relationship,
i risked my joy and my friendship,
all i asked was whether she thought she was wrong,
but what i got was of course pain amazingly long,
was it right what i did, i kept asking,
the answer for it the whole day i was searching
but the more i looked the more i saw,
that nothing was done according to law,
so i gave in and tried to enjoy fun,
but just as i did, i got shot by a gun,
the pain went into me and straight into my brain,
anger came all into my body and drove me insane,
it flowed into me and almost got me into a fight,
but that was when sumone showed me the light,
you see life is like a sharp stone in a river,
the more the water flows over it, the stone becomes less sharper,
life pokes us with the sharpness of the stone,
but as time flows by it doesnt hurt and we dont moan,
of course sadness undoubtedly struck again,
it was amazing how i could stand the pain,
all i do is try to put a smile on someone's face,
but the more i try the worse i finish in the race,
everything i do is for someone to be happy,
but all that happens is that pain slaps me,
the harder i tried to solve the pain,
the worse it got, it felt like i was not sane,
but then it became clear to me,
that all is not what the eyes see,
here i was with my heart screaming out,
where as she was juz chilling nothing to worry about,
i was dragged, cheated again,
into the life's stupid game,
when will all this pain and lies end,
will there be anyone to give me their hand,
to them life is a game which is nice,
but behind the game it is i who pay the price,
when will pain leave this heart of mine,
is there anyone who would be that kind,
the more you see the games of life,
you will wonder why havent u cut yourself with a knife,
but since all the pain is comin to me,
i might as well leave it juz let it be.

ME SAD

this is one of the poems i wrote when i was sad and lonely:

the place that i kept for you is now filled wid sorrow,
will i ever see your smile when i wake up tomolo,
you were special to me in every way
both the actions you do and the words you say
this pain has struck me once again which i tot never will
it is biting me from everywhere i think its starting to kill
why did i feel this way to u i kept asking day by day
did it have to happen or was it a price i had to pay
only three did i love April,June and August
to all of them i gave my love both truthful and honest
but all i got was sadness and unbelievable pain
my tears are dropping all around, its heavier than the rain
oh what didnt i have to satisfy and please thee
not even one loved me but how could i love three
its piercing me everywhere ever since i was born
sometimes i wonder should i haf ever been born
with all the sadness in my life, it seems so forlorn
every hour that seems to pass by keeps damaging my mind
i keep on wondering whether the perfect girl i'll find
but no matter what happens life has to continue
i juz haf to forget the past and start life anew

PARTY!!!!!

will start wid the story of yesterday : slept at 4.30 last nite woke up at 10 was suppose to go to pravin's house and dat dumb cow was sleeping, wasted my bloody time waking up early...prepared everything for my frens to come over to my place was at last havin a party for my fren.... called about 30+ people and guess how many turned up? 14!!! onli 14 not even half... well we kinda had fun lar tried to haf open dance floor but there were onli 2 gals not much fun ya i noe....so afta dat had tammy's party wanted to go there lar but parents said they tired and all but sumhow managed to persuade them to send me with the condition i go back at 10.30... well went there and there were onli 2 other people my age..luckily i had no problem making frens i saw sumone else there too... and sumhow i couldnt stop thinking of her.. wow who was she? haha lets juz leave dat aside... managed to persuade my dad to let me come back at 11... well tammy's party was more successful than mine they had dance floor where people actually danced haha... and u shud haf seen the way she danced my my i think onli 2 people might noe who i mean well newayz dat was about it lar... oh yeah then i went back home watched the mu game... and unsurprsingly mu won 4-0 sumore lovely free kick by ronaldo he's in a class of hsi own man.... so afta the game decided to sneak online.. juz when i was nicely chatting heard my mum's sound i turned it off and went the hell away from the com phew lucky me