WHY FLOWEREDHEART?

Y did u do this ? i thought i was a gud fren to u? i thought i meant sumthing to u.... i didnt noe dat u didnt like this friendship, kinda painful but guess i haf to live wid it i dun haf a choice do i? i juz hope u'll at least b willing to accept me as ur fren this is a poem for u my dear floweredheart

I wonder what I didn't do for you,
You're acting like you never knew,
You say its because we cannot meet,
Yet you claim to know that I am sweet,
Why do you think I can't love and care,
Just because I haven't seen u right there,
Haven't I proven what I feel,
Or did u think it wasn't real,
We were so happy why did it end?
Don't u even think I'm your true friend?
Why do you want it to end this way,
Don't you know you're hurting me each day,
I did everything I could to make you glad,
Guess in the end it just makes me sad,
I hope one day you will see,
That I was just being me,
I love u a lot, you know that,
Are you juz trying to push me to death,
Cause you have put an enormous pain,
You're making me tear as much as the rain,
But no matter what decision you choose to make,
I'll sacrifice anything for your sake.

i'm sorry i couldnt b gud enuf for u, juz hope u'll still accept me as ur fren.
love sweetmane

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME

hey people how haf u guys been? hope you've been fine.... well wad is there to write lets c, i went to indiai had a conference there- a youth christian conference... it was nice actually it wasnt reli nice lar but i dunno y it felt so nice.. mayb it was bcoz ever since i was small i never reli had the chance to mingle wid people of my age in church, my church is a small one and haf very little youths, and the youths are all older than me and the next younger group are 15 sumtimes i juz feel so lonely to go to church and all... but this place was a nice place bcoz i was surrounded by them youths...haih juz those things in life which is like a burning coal even if it stops burning the smell is stilll there its actually the 21st of january today juz a painful feeling in me now, its reli hard for me to take all dis in, wad more afta all dat i did for her... mayb i'm taking things too seriously mayb i shud relax. O
O GOD PLEAZ HELP ME FACE ALL THIS STRUGGLES I AM FACING AND HELP ME HELP OTHERS WHO NEED MY HELP IN UR NAME I PRAY AMEN.

FOR MY FLOWEREDHEART!!!!!

this poem is for you carmen i hope u like it...

Its funny how fate has made me see,
That there was someone one out there for me,
I never thought it would be this way,
You would bring joy to my heart each day,
We became closer more and more,
You became the medicine for my sore,
You started to feel the love I had,
I made you smile everytime you were sad,
You were there for me as well,
You saved me from the arms of hell,
I'll never forget you my dear floweredheart,
Thank you for not pushing me apart,
Today I will promise you one thing,
Between us there should be nothing,
I'll always be here in case you fall,
Always be ready to heed your call,
If you ever need me just close your eyes,
I'll appear like a rainbow in the clear blue skies,
Because never would I want to see you sad,
The mere thought of that makes me mad,
Before I end this I would like to say,
Never will a day come when i leave you away.

love you carmen

BOREDDD!!!!*****####

so here i am again... missing skool like hell but wad to do i haf finished it... was in skool a few days ago played football there... saw the teachers and all... so yeah lar... but i'm telling u i'm bored like hell at home.. missing my frens and all, well there is nothing much u can basically do wid a handphone and well not everyone replies ur messages so yeah its sad but its life... will b travelling to india on friday onli will b coming back on the 17th... tomorrow i haf driving lessons but i dunno whether i can go for it coz i was suppose to pay RM 250 before tomolo and i forgot so damn... haih life is not gud for me basically hope all the others r fine thats all for now i guess

the first day of the year

woke up early again coz i had to go to church... juz to remind u this story is about the 1st of january i dunno y my posts sumtimes go wrong... i think the date is one day slower and i dunno where to adjust it... well yeah so on the first of january i had to go to church in the morning well there was a service but i din go for dat juz went for the meeting afta dat... well the meeting was about the trip to india which i will b goin on the 11th.. well needed to prepare sum things for dat so was preparing for it and then me and my sis went to hangout in megamall.... BIG MISTAKE.. the queue was crazy so decided to go for bowling and there was anotha waiting list in which they would call me onli afta an hour.. so decided to head back home wasted another day well went for my usual footie (football) well to make things short nothing else happened and i went to sleep again

ITS A NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!

well the year of 2007 came to an end again...well a couple of friends and me went to jusco to celebrate the new year... went wid my parents had dinner in mcd...and met up wid my olddddddddddddddddddddd friend LEONG KOK WAH, it was nice seeing him again afta a long time...yeha well hung out wid him for a while then met up wid my other frens.. we went to check out the concert thingy (jaclyn victor, faizal all were there) but it was kinda dull lar mostly for my frens because it was mostly in chinese and all of us were indian... so we decided to go to the arcade section of jusco had sum fun there and then around 11.55 we went down for the countdown... it was packed and we reached there juz in time and the countdown started and got to c live fireworks for the new year for the first time in my life... well newayz afta dat hanged out for a while in Arya curry house then went back home at around 1... went online afta dat , dad as usual nagging around went to bed at last around 4.30 coz i got this call from a girl and was juz talking to her throughout the night....